LIVING THIS CraZY LIFE…………

September 10, 2009 at 1:26 pm | In intense feeling | 1 Comment
Thursday Sep 10, ‘09 4:06 PM
for everyone
little by little..
by Zola
 

i still can’t accept the fact that it ended just like that.. it’s been what 3 months but all of it is still embedded in my conscious mind.. i still cry like i child not getting what she wanted whenever i came through some memories.. after crying, anger sets in and then i feel so numb and slept without dreaming.. always like that… then woke up drained…  how i wanted this to end.. i’m tired i just want to forget everything and go on tackle another phase in life and see if i get lucky.. i don’t wanna bother my mother about this crap, she’s been so comforting and i thank her very much…

i have to learn to let go.. and accept that change is always a constant in our life so a family…

I cant view this at FRIENDSTER, so I copied and pasted from my email and tried posting here.

LIFE IS A CONSTANT STRUGGLE Zol, he may be lucky that he hurt you. There are so many reasons why, advantages, disadvantages, but we have to get on with what comes next.

Im glad you experienced what it meant and felt to be dumped. It hit you hard, I know it tough. Do not lose hope, you will and you can move on with this aches and pains.

Does it help you still talking to him? Does it heal wounds or just let you think some more WHY? In a relationship ONE HAS TO SAY NO AND YES.  Not that lucky enough to fall up to him, he’s been twice, I think  the revenge is great for him to what we consider a TRUE FRIEND. It sting, its deep and not healing right away.

When we’re inlove we can’t see the other side of the coin, we are like HORSEs with both eyes covered so it wont be distracted, jump off and run. Too bad it happens in the most unexpected time. As you see the consequences, your NCLEX, your JOB, but you got your own APARTMENT, you still have me and Bjo, we have Sonny too who is very loyal and understanding, even the rest of your friends gained thru him.

It will be too appalling if everything fell apart. Try your best to concentrate, NOBODY COULD HELP YOU, heal but YOU, yourself, though slow, take your time, I know its not easy. That is better that getting depressed, too sick to manage life. You still have the glow and the bright smile, the wisdom, the courage of a strong woman, with strong faith ready to accept changes and FIGHT.

Just bear in mind what a disgusting GIFT you gave him, he will have it for life through his GENERATION. hIs parents may that chruch goer but the action is against of what they are always doing to pray for in their chruch.

How I wish he could read this or just his mother, so they will understand the pain we’ve been through. IF WE COMPARE OURSELVES WITH OTHER, we may become vain and bitter, for always there will be greater and lesser person than yourself (please read DESIDERATA).

For the mean time lets work hard, take a deep breath, do your review, in a year or two YOU WILL LEARN TO LIVE A LIFE with beautiful color once again.

There maybe a shadow of pain, but thats more easier than having the whole world to carry for life.  Be glad you felt this way today, this will let you learn a great lesson of being inlove without hesitations and reservations.

As Pop would say, I understand how Zola felt, it takes time to heal… let time do the healing process at her own time.

Be happy that FRIENDSHIP was not ruined, now learn to be cautious.

I love you so much, I may not be a perfect Nanay but I did my best to give the BEST.

Interesting Conversation

August 15, 2009 at 10:04 am | In by all means | No Comments

INTERESTING CONVERSATION

An Atheist Professor of Philosophy was speaking to his Class on the Problem Science has with GOD,the ALMIGHTY. He asked one of his New Christian Students to stand and…

Professor : You are a Christian, aren’t you, son ?
Student    : Yes, sir.
Professor : So, you Believe in GOD ?
Student    : Absolutely, sir.
Professor : Is GOD Good ?
Student    : Sure.
Professor : Is GOD ALL - POWERFUL ?
Student    : Yes.
Professor : My Brother died of Cancer even though he Prayed to  GOD to Heal him. Most of us would attempt to help others who are ill. But GOD didn’t. How is this GOD good then? Hmm?

(Student was silent )

Professor : You can’t answer, can you ?  Let’s start again, Young Fella. Is GOD Good?
Student    : Yes…
Professor : Is Satan good ?
Student    : No.
Professor : Where does Satan come from ?
Student    : From . .. . GOD . . .
Professor : That’s right.  Tell me son, is there evil in this World?
Student    : Yes.
Professor : Evil is everywhere, isn’t it ? And GOD did make everything. Correct?
Student    : Yes.
Professor : So who created evil ?

(Student did not answer)

Professor : Is there Sickness? Immorality? Hatred? Ugliness? All these terrible things exist in the World, don’t they?
Student    : Yes, sir.
Professor : So, who Created them ?

(Student had no answer)

Professor : Science says you have 5 Senses you use to Identify and Observe the World around you. Tell me, son . . . Have you ever Seen GOD?
Student    : No, sir.
Professor : Tell us if you have ever Heard your GOD?
Student    : No , sir.
Professor : Have you ever Felt your GOD, Tasted your GOD, Smelt your GOD? Have you ever had any Sensory Perception of GOD for that matter?
Student    : No, sir. I’m afraid I haven’t.
Professor : Yet you still Believe in HIM?
Student    : Yes.
Professor : According to Empirical, Testable, Demonstrable Protocol, Science says your GOD doesn’t exist.  What do you say to that, son?
Student    : Nothing.  I only have my Faith.
Professor : Yes,Faith.  And that is the Problem Science has.

Student    :  Professor, is there such a thing as Heat?
Professor :  Yes.
Student    :  And is there such a thing as Cold?
Professor :  Yes.
Student   :   No, sir. There isn’t.

(The Lecture Theatre became very quiet with this turn of events )

Student    :  Sir, you can have Lots of Heat, even More Heat, Superheat, Mega Heat, White Heat, a Little Heat or No Heat. But we don’t have anything called Cold. We can hit 458 Degrees below Zero which is No Heat, but we can’t go any further after that. There is no such thing as Cold. Cold is only a Word we use to describe the Absence of Heat. We cannot Measure Cold. Heat is Energy. Cold is Not the Opposite of Heat, sir, just the Absence of it.

(There was Pin-Drop Silence in the Lecture Theatre )

Student    : What about Darkness, Professor? Is there such a thing as Darkness?
Professor : Yes. What is Night if there isn’t Darkness?
Student    : You’re wrong again, sir. Darkness is the Absence of Something. You can have Low Light, Normal Light, Bright Light, Flashing Light . . . But if you have No Light constantly, you have nothing and its called Darkness, isn’t it? In reality, Darkness isn’t. If it is, were you would be able to make Darkness Darker, wouldn’t you?
Professor :  So what is the point you are making, Young Man ?
Student   :   Sir, my point is your Philosophical Premise is flawed.
Professor :  Flawed ? Can you explain how?
Student    :  Sir, you are working on the Premise of Duality. You argue there is Life and then there is Death, a Good GOD and a Bad GOD. You are viewing the Concept of GOD as something finite, something we can measure. Sir, Science can’t even explain a Thought. It uses Electricity and Magnetism, but has never seen, much less fully understood either one. To view Death as the Opposite of Life is to be ignorant of the fact that Death cannot exist as a Substantive Thing. Death is Not the Opposite of Life: just the Absence of it. Now tell me, Professor, do you teach your Students that they evolved from a Monkey?
Professor : If you are referring to the Natural Evolutionary Process, yes, of course, I do.
Student    : Have you ever observed Evolution with your own eyes, sir?

(The Professor shook his head with a Smile, beginning to realize where the Argument was going )

Student    : Since no one has ever observed the Process of Evolution at work and cannot even prove that this Process is an On-Going Endeavor, are you not teaching your Opinion, sir? Are you not a Scientist but a Preacher?

(The Class was in Uproar )

Student    : Is there anyone in the Class who has ever seen the Professor’s Brain?

(The Class broke out into Laughter )

Student    : Is there anyone here who has ever heard the Professor’s Brain, Felt it, touched or Smelt it? . . ..No one appears to have done so.   So, according to the Established Rules of Empirical, Stable, Demonstrable Protocol, Science says that You have No Brain, sir. With all due respect, sir, how do we then Trust your Lectures, sir?

(The Room was Silent. The Professor stared at the Student, his face unfathomable)

Professor :  I guess you’ll have to take them on Faith, son.
Student    :  That is it sir . . .  Exactly! The Link between Man & GOD is FAITH. That is all that Keeps Things Alive and Moving.

NB:

I believe you have enjoyed the Conversation . . . and if so . .
You’ll probably want your Friends / Colleagues to enjoy the same . . . won’t you?
Forward it to them to Increase their Knowledge . . . or FAITH.

The student was ALBERT EINSTEIN

free medicals for illegals

July 5, 2009 at 8:01 pm | In intense feeling | No Comments

Sharing my disgust over the student visa of my daughter which is so compicated to secure. I think this is the right time to express what I’ve felt over the years.

When I came I WAS A TOURIST WITH SINGLE entry and choose to stay for good. Whenever we got sick SIS NORA GALLEROS did not encourage any of us like many other FILIPINOS, to just go to the emergency and enjoy the free medical.

Now that Im a tax payer, how I HATE TO HEAR, ALL, those people who gloats that they have DOCTOR’S appointment here and there. Ho I wish to ask DO YOU HAVE MEDICAL INSURANCE? If not please keep quite.

Did you not know that tax payers pays a lot because YOU ILLIGALs enjoyed all those at our expense? Running around like a hungry dog and grab whatever is free. Think of it people? Green card holders who dont have stable job will have a problem in case they get sick, or anybody who did not have HEALTH insurance. Free is just good for those LIBERALS, democrats who wants to share other peoples income to the less furtunate!

Yes, illegals could just do anything because the US government has no records of whatsoever like SOCIAL SECURITY number..etc.etc…where you could be traced at anytime. You could be with your addressess but THE LIBERTY, and freeedom loving as well as equal oppurtunity reigns in this country.

Since my WM was a retired USPS, I dont have a problem with it, the only thing I feel is the EVER INCREASING taxes we paid every year to be just ………….

In Germany, if you happen to land in the hospital without legal stay, after your treatment you next destination is AIRPORT to be sent where you came from.

when can it happen here in America, it will never be… Obama what can you say

what an encouraging story

June 8, 2009 at 1:16 pm | In by all means | No Comments
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This is ‘Faith’
This dog was born on Christmas Eve in the year 2002. He was born with 3  legs - 2 healthy hind legs and 1 abnormal front leg which had to be  amputated.
He of course could not walk when he was born. Even his mother did not want him.


His first owner also did not think that he could survive and he was thinking of ‘putting him to sleep’.
But then, his present owner, Jude Stringfellow, met him and wanted  to take care of him. She became determined to teach and train this little dog to walk by himself.  
She named him ‘Faith’.


In the beginning, she put Faith on a surfboard to let him feel the movement. Later she used peanut  butter on a spoon as a lure and reward for him for standing up and jumping around. Even the other dog at home encouraged him to walk.
Amazingly, only after 6 months, like a miracle, Faith learned to balance on his hind legs and to jump to move forward. After further training in the snow, he could now walk like a human being.


Faith loves to walk around now. No matter where he goes, he attracts people to him. He is fast becoming famous on the international scene and has appeared on various newspapers and TV shows. There is now a book entitled ‘With a Little Faith’ being published about him.
He was even considered to appear in one of Harry Potter movies.


His present owner Jude Stringfellew has given up her teaching post and plans to take him around the world
to  preach that even without a perfect body, one can have a perfect soul‘.

In life there are always undesirable things, so in order to feel better you just need to look at life from another direction.I hope this message will bring fresh new ways of thinking to everyone
and that everyone will appreciate and be thankful for each beautiful day. Faith is the continual demonstration of the strength and wonder of life

 

 

How do I change……………..

June 3, 2009 at 8:19 am | In by all means | No Comments

How do I change?
If I feel depressed I will sing.
If I feel sad I will laugh.
If I feel ill I will double my labour.
If I feel fear I will plunge ahead.
If I feel inferior I will wear new garments.
If I feel uncertain I will raise my voice.
If I feel poverty I will think of wealth to come.
If I feel incompetent I will think of past success.
If I feel insignificant I will remember my goals.
Today I will be the master of my emotions. 
 

Immigration Rights for Gay Couple.. I need reactions from YOU!

June 3, 2009 at 6:32 am | In by all means | No Comments

While having breakfast my lady always reads anything to me, just in time for her bathroom I got hold of the NEW YORK TIMES dated today June 3, 2009 and read this item. I was appallled and I hope these people/couple will not be granted any right unless.

This Shirley Tan, with her 12-year-old twin sons, Jashley, left and Joriene Mercado. Ms. Tan, a FILIPINA, has been unable to gain legal residence, while her partner, who is also a woman, has.

 

THIS IS WAS IRATE ME…..!

“MS. TAN SAID SE FEARED RETURNINGTO THE PHILPPINES, IN PART BECAUSE OF CONCERN THAT SHE AND MS. MERCADO WOULD FACE ANTI-GAY DISCRINATION THERE.”

“PEOPLE ARE CRUEL THERE” she said. “I don’t know if I can expose my boys to narrow-minded people.”

With this Im praying fervently that her partner wont be granted residence, they have not been in the Philippines for years thats why.

Bukidnon My HOME

April 29, 2009 at 4:39 pm | In series of events | No Comments

This is the song we sung every after the National anthem in all our activites in Bukidnon. How I love it, and has been one of my favorite song to sing for my girls when they were still toddlers.

Wherever I may roam
The distant land to see
I long to go back soon
To sweet Bukidnon home
Where lovely mountains high
With forest old and grand
Bring memories to me
The home I long to see.

Chorus:


There my heart
Yearns to be
In far away Bukidnon land
Under its blue starry skies
Where love and joy never die
(repeat Chorus)

Getting Along Better

April 28, 2009 at 6:54 am | In by all means | No Comments

GETTING ALONG BETTER

(Proven Ways to Get Along Better with Everyone)

1. Before you say anything to anyone, ask yourself 3 things:

-Is it true?
-Is it kind?
-Is it necessary?

2. Make promises sparingly and keep them faithfully.

3. Never miss the opportunity to compliment or say something encouraging to someone.

4. Refuse to talk negatively about others; don’t gossip and don’t listen to gossip.

5. Have a forgiving view of people. Believe that most people are doing the best they can.

6. Keep an open mind; discuss, but don’t argue. (It is possible to disagree without being disagreeable.)

7. Forget about counting to 10. Count to 1,000 before doing or saying anything that could make matters worse.

8. Let your virtues speak for themselves.

9. If someone criticizes you, see if there is any Truth to what they are saying; if so, make changes.
If there is no truth to the criticism, ignore it and live so that no one will believe the negative remark.

10. Cultivate your sense of humor; laughter is the shortest distance between two people.

11. Do not seek so much to be consoled, as to console; do not seek so much to be understood, as to understand; do not seek so much to be loved as to love.

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33 or more things about me that you need to know

April 22, 2009 at 1:07 pm | In series of events | No Comments

I was tagged by Annette and it took me too long to be able to post this. A few was posted and this was left out in my journal for more I should say… but

1. Oppsssss…! I did it again. I was married once a decade older than me and promised ENOUGH is ENOUGH! But once again I found Mr. Right for the SECOND TIME AROUND…… a WHITE MONKEY  s t i l l 

 I will make it clear 10 years older but my future is secure, as well as my old age.

2. Wanna have a ride with me. Brace yourself I drift off in seconds while driving no matter where and what. I tried sleeping early, rest enough, but I’ve noticed Im more prone to sleep while on wheels. Its a good thing NOBODY DARES to ask favor to take and pick them up or any run errands.

3. I always use my hair as my dental floss. My strand is quite think and strong.

4. when feeling blue and sad, I bite my nails. When fresh from shower feeling like to cut my nails, its soft and tender. People I love to nibble every piece of it. As my white monkey said, do you want more? Can give you a lot more…! yukkkks just mine.

5. Been working for three years with my 86 years old Jewish lady. I wear the same PJs, socks, undies, bra, and has two pairs of jeans as my uniform. Got spring, summer, fall and winter uniforms to match. Im a wear and wear and wash person.

6. My earpiece is part of my cellphone all the time, I dont answer without it.

7. I work 27/7 and be home once every two weeks, leaving my WHITE MONKEY by himself in his big blue house by himself.

8. Since 1999 to date my WHITE MONKEY never fails to call every 9pm to check his beautiful wife :-(

9. Cheese steak and french fries is POISON to me, I had been eating it with him since day one until now……I take it as loyalty, so i trust him to be left home and will not run around.

10. For my eleven years stay in NY-NJ, I still go with the same set of friends I consider my extended family. Our addresses changes many times but we all get together in the same household that WELCOMES everyone.!

11. I dont have GOD CHILDREN, even in the PHilippines. If ever I miss out something they beg me or listed me. Im not comfortable to be called for.

12. I love and enjoyed being a member of ALPHA PHI OMEGA, and IM SO PROUD OF IT.

13. I work without being told, its inherent, its in my blood to be a houskeeper, thats why Im underemployed.

14. I took the teacher’s test for the first time my MATH has only scored 4, I flunked. The second time around I sat beside a B.S MATH magna cum laude. FINALLY I made it, but I did not file for the certification right away and the passing score changed, here Im taking it again for thenth time….

14. I graduated AB Econmonis and Social Science, then BSE Physical Education. Please dont let me dance, it will take time for meto learn a step.

15. Teenage marriage, at 17, continue school and had my first baby at the age of 23. Jorel comes next after a year. Lost two boys, then Yechiel

16. Had a beautiful life, treasured affair  for 13 years with my very best friend from Gingoog City where now I got an instant son a few months younger then my youngest daughter.

17. I earned a lot of friends from FRIENDSTER thru blogging and I learned a lot from them. Meet a few and what a nice circle of friends in the web.

18. Nike shoes as everyone love Michael Jordan time, I had my pair of shoes on my first salary while working at DPWH at the age of 23, while my two girls had theirNike shoes when they were a toddlers. What a life.

19. There is no river or lake pool in my hometown, or we are not allowed to go out with friends, but I learned how to swim when my father took us to SAMAR, when I was 7 years old.

20. When my grandmother died last 1979, I was fresh from shower and full, went to take a nap, dream BIG, left my body and saw all the people milling around praying and I was wondering why I’ve seen them. I went back to my body and decide to come back its TOO BIG TO BE LEFT OUT. It took me awhile and enough struggle. Had anyone came to catch me I should be SIX FEET OF EARTH NOW.

21. I maintained  size 8, but I really discipline myself what not to eat. I could tell you how much I weigh. my age, and my income, dont you dare ask my waistline. I love my belly where it has layers in it, and I hate to do exercises to get rid of it.

22. Being career service eligible, i was able to work at DPWH-Gingoog City, where I was a volleyball player, a spiker and became MOST VALUABLE PLAYER. Filed early retirement under Cory Administration and went on to be a part time college teacher and a full time high school teacher anf left for good.

23. For working hard, I always buy a gift for myself, a PERFUME, then give it to my loving sisters everytime I come home.

24. When I got my GREEN CARD AND US citizenship I started to list/itimize my finances. To my surprise I could send that much to he Philippines, I started to have all these guilty pleasure I refrained a long time ago.

25.I showered my girls what I can afford, provide what I can get, take them out for a quality time, though Jorel seemed foreign, PEOPLE WHEN INLOVE is blnd. Let it be.

26. Working as a housekeeper for three year, and chcken is all that the family will have, grilled, fried, rotisierre, etc, etc with steamed broccolli, thats the reason why I HATE CHICKEN, esp the smell.

27. Train is my mode of transportation going to work and back but when I took the test I forgot whats the sign of a rail????

28.I learn to be nasty and rude while working as a caregiver, and my being helping is gone with this old lady I work with.

29. I love to go home to the Philippines, but I cant stay that long in there anymore, two weeks the most…. I dont know why!

30. I was fired asa BABYSITTER for dring a vintage ared wine. I thought telling the truth is the pest policy, but thats the reaosn I was fired, I should Have told the family ITS IN THE RECYCLES.

31. Everytime my lady act up when I drive, the FILIPINO DRIVER in me comes out and she has to grab her dear life in my takes and turns ans every quick stop.

32.  I love cheddar kraft white cheese until now. My mom is just a teacher and my dad a soldier with six in the family, they afford to buy me this kind of cheese.

33. I wear my hair long and cut every two or three years and donate the 11 inches to the LOCKS of LOVE.

34. I was followed by a cop for almost 3 miles in my 7th day at work, for almost hitting him or changing lane or I dont know. I ain’t got ticket, knowing we both are IRISH, It was Sunday I was just told to say three HAILMARY’s..

35. As a friend used to say: IM THE BEST PERSON YOU WANNA BE, and the WORST ENEMY YOU CAN HAVE.

                                      so dont you dare

36. Im a caregiver, its my lady who will cook for me just like my hwite monkey when Im home. She does our laundry, and Im a companion payed to do nothing while at work.

Lately got a raise so I will stay…..I dont know how long but I learn to love my work not my lady………..

37. i learned how to drive when I was nine, remember in the 70’s the FORD FIERA? I used to be the conductor Kalilangan to Maramag. Going home I always ask our driver if I could take the wheel. I sure did and our driver is fas asleep.

38. I get used having a LIVE JEWISH GPS, that srcreams and curse. Im numbed and do what she say QUICKLY.

39. While working here with my lady, I learn to say YES and NO, do not argue, just listen, and my favorite answer is I DONT KNOW, I HAVE NO IDEA.

40. Being compassionate is out of my system when I found out my lady is a user’

41. I dont beg, even if Im in dire need!

42. If people will not listen I will do what I want dont care what they say!

43. I could starve my self with my sexual pleasure in a year and I had tried it many times…. though I felt mesirable, depressed but I made it until such time he undestood Im drained.

44. For my diet, I always have good brakfast and lunch, dinner time is fruits at work most of the time, anyway I will just sleep. I dont have the real banana so I think its allowed to eat them. My lady was glad she saved a lot!

 

45. will add up more from time to time.

 

Judge me not my friends……………………….

 

6.

Bugs taste good in a SOUP

April 21, 2009 at 6:00 pm | In by all means | No Comments

My white monkey is ALWAYS on diet now that he retires. This is what he had on his soup last Friday. He loves canned veggies, now I will say this is  safe to eat too.

I always watch him to eat, I feel that he just swallow everything and I was amazed how he was able to get hold of this BUG in his mouth/tongue. Does it taste good?

He saved it for me so I will believe he got this from his soup. For sure he got this from his frozen spinach.

Now he is very hesitant to have more soup and whenever he ask me something WITH BUG OR NO BUG.   

pick what you want.. I told him I JUST WANT JUNJUN with no bug.

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